So nothin is happenin these days! I should really get my ... up and start my termpaper and work out, but I just dont feel like it. I m dizzy all day and then my body is physically responding well to some rest from workin out. And as the first baseball game is gonna be on the weekend, I might just as well give it some rest. Ok enough whining.

My sister!? Where is she? haha, seems to be busy or out of the house all the time. Well or she is sleepin. You know good old germany!?

Besides that, I ve watched a couple of movies the last couple of days.

Nothin else is new, just thought I should keep you updated..
I guess right now in my life everything is circeling around one thing only...

so for now its another quote...

"Now I think moral fiber's about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean. You know what? It doesn't matter. Because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth the squeeze. That's what moral fiber's all about. " - Matt (Girl next door)

Hey,

sorry its been a while, been on a road trip to south germany. Seen a lot, done a lot and had a lot of fun! Thanks Michelle =)
Unfortunately shes back in Budapest. Miss you so much already!

What else happened? My best friend left our baseball team to play in the 2nd german league. Good luck Flo! Hate to see you go!
Maybe Thorben is gonna go there too, who knows....would suck...

Sis came back today! yiiiiihhaaaaaaaaa! Although I guess I will not see a lot of her the next couple of days..haha

Then it was my dads birthday sunday, but didnt really do anything for that, cause I took 3 juniors to the state team tryouts, hope they gonna make it!? Who knows.. Good luck guys!

Tilman, a friend who is touring south america right now, wrote me an email! Sounds like he is having a lot of fun down there and a great experience. He is really inspiring me. Maybe I m gonna do something similar later on in my life! Really wanna do it now!

Julia, is still in cali doing a language class with all those koreans, haha. I guess she doesnt think I m that crazy after meeting all those people there ;-P Am I? Maybe still..

My other best friend Kai had a little trouble with his gf. Wonder where his road is takin him. Got a job denial as well..daaaah,, sorry dude, you ll find somethin...

Oh and it was easter... totally didnt do anything for that. I dont like holidays anyways...

The freakin korean national team (soccer) lost against saudia arabia in a WC 06 qualifier...argh... I really want them to be here in germany next year.. Actually they are thinkin about sending a combined national team north and south korea, would be a good thing. Who knows, maybe we will have a unified korea pretty soon after all! And then no more nuclear weapons, hopefully!

What else happened... I guess nothing really...tomorrow is gonna be our first outdoor practice and then saturday first exhibition game...

pasquale will have a mri on his elbow tomorrow. hope nothin is wrong there......

I guess you dont know who all those people are?!?! I guess I should put up some pictures soon!

For now its happy easter to all of you out there!!!!

"But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all." - Kat (10 things I hate about you)

Saying goodbye is the saddest thing. Yeah, happens way to often!
maybe its up from 2 to 4 this week...haha funny ej ;-)

Let the good times roll! Happiness ist just around the corner and I m determined to go there =)

"In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally " - Pink (Family Portrait)

Ok, before I start out! Rollercoasters move way too fast! Point!

Losing trust in people really sucks, now I ve lost trust in 2 of the most important people in my life. Sucks. but whatever! Things that dont kill you, make you harder! I wonder why, but actually it doesnt bother me as much as I thought it would. I guess I ve grown pretty strong. Thank god, I m not such a whinner anymore...haha

Ok, what happened today? Got in a fight with my mom, went to work, gonna clean up and prepare a little something for the evening, cause my baby girl is gonna come. Yay ?!

Might not be able to blog in the next couple of days, because I ll be on a road trip. So I ll talk to all of you in a week!

sorry my blogs have been so boring... will be more fun once baseball season starts and summer and the bbq is set on fire ;-)

ok thats it for now!

"Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend love Is not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my Face" - Tamia (Smile)

Sometimes there is a moment in your life, where everthing freezes, your life is passing by and all of a sudden it seems like you understand everything that you have been confused about the last couple of seconds,minutes,hours,days,months or even years.

For me this seems to happen more often lately, which is a good thing!? I dont know why though? I feel like its because I m really growin up lately and tryin to find my place in life. And I m also on the verge of finding out who of my friends I can rely on and who not. This always happens to me in a 2year period. I wonder why though.

Anyways, back to the actual events!
1.Got a haircut!
2.Updating Baseball HP!
3.Cleaned up my car!
4.Bought groceries!
5.Talk a walk in the sunshine (so warm today ~22 degrees)
6.Cleaning up the house!

I guess that was it until now. Later gonna have a meeting with my baseball kids and then go to bed early because I ll have to work tomorrow morning.

and now a couple of ansers :
Best feeling in the world :
A hug from a person you really care about!

Worst feeling in the world :
Saying goodbye to a person you really care about!
(ok there are other things too, but I chose this one)

What I want to experience before I die :
Witness the birth of my child

ok, this is it for today, take care everyone out there!
Sorry for my blog being so lame today...dunno.. not in the mood...

"The most important thing in life is showing up i am blown away by your ability to show up. "-Coach Conner (Hardball)

Today was my sports day and its not over yet ;-) Went to take about 200 golf swings at the driving range in the morning, then went on to throw a couple of baseballs outdoors for the first time this year and then later will go to the gym. Why do I keep doin this to my body. Well seasons just around the corner, so I better get in shape. April 2nd is gonna be our first game!

What else is goin on. Still so busy and I dont even know why. I keep passin out doin stuff as well, which is really annoying, cause it takes way longer like that.
Still gotta update our baseball Hp tonight and design a poster. sooo tired already and so much more stuff to do until saturday when my baby girl is gonna come! =)

Nothin else really happened today, but our hockey team will have its first playoff game in about 10 minutes! Let´s go Lions!

"It's a trip, you know. When you're a kid, you see the life you want. It just never crosses your mind that its not going to turn out that way." (Love & Basketball)

Its this time of the year again were everythin just seems so much better than usually. What makes us feel that way? Is it the new colors reappearing out of nowhere? Is it the warmth that is spreading around us? Or is it simply because we have more of the day, because the light is out there keepin us company. I guess its all that for me and then a couple of people that have made my day a lot better than it would have usually been.
Thanks Michelle, Alex and Donna! =)
Had a great day, although I was really busy, but I got a lot of work for uni done as well and it didnt seem that hard.

Ok, that actually my day, but then there is so much more!
Have you ever tried to hold onto something really hard, thinkin if you let it go its really gonna mess up your whole life and then hold onto something else and let it go as well, but then you know there is always (at least I hope) somethin you that you can hold onto to. For me its been a constant coming and going and I wonder if it will ever stop, because I really hope it will. Cant let my soul take all those hits over and over again!

"Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything. About life, hope and the long journey ahead. I'll always miss her." - Landon (A walk to remember)

I thank god for all those happy memories I ve shared in the past and all the memories I hope I will share in the future!

Thats it for now, will try to write more in the morning!

Good night everbody!

So haha, finally left our house and learnt how to go to sleep at midnight. Wonder when the last time was that that happened ;-)
After going to a bar last night, the girls were complaining how I had promised them to go clubbing and never lived up to the hype, so I had to go clubbing! Again ;-) 3 times in just over a week, crazy. I guess before that I was clubbing 3 times in the last half year, haha.
Anyways, then yesterday I went to the hockey game and our home team finished in first place =) Now they gonna head into the play-offs as top seed, after winning the championship for the first time last year! Oh and then I got to be the coach again! I guess the guys liked the practice.

Talking about practice I should tell you bout my wrecked body. I am like a walking junkyard. Hyperextended tendons and ligaments in my knees and my shoulders. My doc says, they are like the knees of a 60 year old. Then I have a poping noise making groin. Weak ankels from twisting them so much and my right arm is totally messed up as well from throwing like 1000000 times so far, playing handball and baseball. Haha, I wonder if my head is alright, cause my back has started acting up as well. So what is there left. Only my head...haha, maybe not!? Who knows ;-) Oh yeah and I have circularity disorders as well. Ok, I m a big whinner. Just wanted to let you know. So how far will my legs carry me? I ll find out soon enough!

We're goin' in there. If you can
walk, let's walk. If you can't walk, it's time to roll. If you have crutches,
then crutch your ass over there! -Lance Barton (aka Chris Rock) (Down to earth)

So after practice I was finally tired enough to go to sleep at midnight, but then woke up at 6, although I had only slept 4 hours the night before! Strange thing that is ;-)

So what´s the plan for today (Monday) I ll finally try to get some stuff, that I need to do, done.

Did I ever tell you I m afraid of height? I guess I did. It comes from falling of a fire department pole when I was like 8?!? Had to spend the night at the hospital, because they feared I had inner bleeding. Fortunately hadnt. So yeah I dont like rollercoasters for that reason, I would still go on them for special people. I guess I would always do stuff that I dont want to for special people! People tell me, I m crazy, I m insane and I need to stop, but that´s just me, so I cant stop and I don´t want to stop. Anyways, my life has been a rollercoaster ride the past couple of months as well and I hope I ll find the exit on top. I m on the high point right now, so maybe I ll find the exit real soon!? ;-)

"It is not what you say, it
is how you say it!"

Anyways another thing I was thinkin about today is, that you can get a message out of everything, if you just try hard enough. So I ve read "Ps. I love you", which is probably really cheesy and people would make fun of me, because I m a guy reading it, but still it made me think so much and made me realize a couple of things that I really want to follow from now on! Right now I m reading Michael Herr´s "Dispatches" , which is about the vietnam war and I m already curious what message I m gonna take out of that!?

Ok so today I m finally gonna do something tonight! I ll go out with a couple of girls. Nothing special though, just going to a bar. I hope its gonna be fun, maybe a couple of guys from my baseball team will come by later! So we ll see how that goes. And tomorrow I ll go to a hockey game and then be the coach for my own baseball team. I always feel strange, when I have to coach my own team, but well somehow it makes me proud that I m the one the coach turns to, when he can not be there and then the team really listens to me! Weird feeling, cause I dont feel so much like a leader. I guess it´s like a friend said two nights ago. "Lead by example!" ;-)
Ok, need to get ready now! Have a fun day!

"To the world you might be someone,

to someone you might be the
world"

So actually I was gonna stop posting stuff for today and I dont even know why I keep putting stuff up here. I guess that comes with not having left the house in 2 days. I feel like such a bum. Anyways, so the last couple of weeks I ve been on this weird trip I cant get out of. Just now I was thinkin about if I am a grey person or black or white. And actually if I dont care its gonna be grey all the way, but then if its something I do really care about its do or die and I think I ve got too much of that, meaning I go way too for in a lot of respects and the really bad thing about that is knowing it, but not being able to stop it. That is like my life story right there! Knowing what I should do and what not and not following it after all and doing something totally stupid although its wrong! Too much passion! Haha, I really need to stop puttin my soul out on this freakish internet thing, where everyone that wants to could really see. Believe me, its really easy to find out stuff about someone if you really want to. Crazy! Scary too!
I just thought about something really difficult and painful too! I thought of letting go something I really dont want to, but I feel like I have to, to protect myself before it is tearin me apart! I know a lot of you will not understand, but I think some will! I just hope I will be strong enough to actually say goodbye!

Being perfect is not about that
scoreboard out there. It's not about winning. It's about you and your
relationship with yourself, your family and your friends. Being perfect is about
being able to look your friends in the eye and know that you didnt let them down
because you told them the truth. And that truth is you did everything you could.
There wasnt one more thing you could've done. Can you live in that moment as
best you can, with clear eyes, and love in your heart, with joy in your heart?
If you can do that gentleman ,you're perfect! - Coach Gaines (Friday Night
Lights)

Ok, I need to get of here!

This is a recent picture taken in Victoria!
This is a typical Richy! Just staring into the neverending sky and reflecting on life!

So, today was one of them days, where I felt I m wasting 90% of my life with doing nothing at all. I once again stayed up all night chatting, although I actually enjoyed the talk and thought it might help me in my later life. But then I woke up and ended up doing nothing. I know this is my break and stuff, but I gotta start something. I guess I ll be alright come sunday evening, cause then I have obligations. Ok enough whining for the day! So I do miss my gf a lot and I talked about a crazy plan with my best friend back home and he made me realize I might be screwing things up and then I thought about what I was talking about last night and I figured, I should just relax a little and take my time off. Its really hard for me, because I m so freakin passionate! Anyways I guess you found out a little more about me in this blog!

For now, its another quote :

"We are who we are, people don´t change" -Estella (Great
Expectations)

If I give you a clean sheet?
What will you write?
Will your words be long and graceful
or short and sweet?
Will it be poetry or brute instinct?
If you have something to say,
best say it now,
for soon,
always too soon.
My sheet will be filled
and this chapter will end
as sure as the next will begin,
with a clean sheet
new authors
and a million
possibilities.
Leave an impression!

---- Bauer Advertisment

So this is why my blog carries the title "Leave an impression. Funny right? This is an advertisment for hockey skates, which I read at the age of 15, so about 8 years ago and has never left my life since.

So after a week in Victoria, canada. I feel like my whole semester break is like a roundtrip. Been to Hungary and Canada already and then will go to Switzerland and Austria next week! I really enjoy seeing all those places, but I wonder when I m gonna do all the other stuff, like applying for a semester abroad and then writing my term paper! I guess I ll find away. Anyways, so today I woke up like 4pm, crazy right? Didnt do anything special afterwards.

So I ve been watching a lot of movies and also reading a little, so I ve found my passion for quotes! They seem to be so telling sometimes! Will try to add a quote to my blog everyday. Have to figure out how to do it though.

Ok, so I ll try to tell you something about me everyday as well!
Starting with who I am! So, I am 23, was born in Frankfurt, Germany. I have a korean mother and a german father, so I am half blooded and feeling like it!

Ok nothing really happened today!

"I'm not going to tell the story the way it happened. I'm going to tell it the
way I remember it." - Finn (Great Expectations)

(4 1/2 weeks until the start of baseball season)

So this is getting started! Have to learn all the functions of my blog first. And I never thought I would do something like this, but I m trying to get it going and as I m on my semester break I ll try to keep this updated!

And I hope a couple of my friends will come up with their own blogs and maybe leave a comment once in a while!

Ok so I ve been trying to make a couple of changes to the appearance of the page. Some worked out, some didnt! So I m gonna crash for now and post some interesting stuff tomorrow!

For today its just a quote from my fav movie, which I found on another friends blog!

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evilbut rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
- The Bible : 1 Corinthians 13:4 –

I ve never been so in love before, feeling totally crazy!

Ok, you take care everybody!

Welcome to my world!