Did I ever tell you I m afraid of height? I guess I did. It comes from falling of a fire department pole when I was like 8?!? Had to spend the night at the hospital, because they feared I had inner bleeding. Fortunately hadnt. So yeah I dont like rollercoasters for that reason, I would still go on them for special people. I guess I would always do stuff that I dont want to for special people! People tell me, I m crazy, I m insane and I need to stop, but that´s just me, so I cant stop and I don´t want to stop. Anyways, my life has been a rollercoaster ride the past couple of months as well and I hope I ll find the exit on top. I m on the high point right now, so maybe I ll find the exit real soon!? ;-)

"It is not what you say, it
is how you say it!"

Anyways another thing I was thinkin about today is, that you can get a message out of everything, if you just try hard enough. So I ve read "Ps. I love you", which is probably really cheesy and people would make fun of me, because I m a guy reading it, but still it made me think so much and made me realize a couple of things that I really want to follow from now on! Right now I m reading Michael Herr´s "Dispatches" , which is about the vietnam war and I m already curious what message I m gonna take out of that!?

Ok so today I m finally gonna do something tonight! I ll go out with a couple of girls. Nothing special though, just going to a bar. I hope its gonna be fun, maybe a couple of guys from my baseball team will come by later! So we ll see how that goes. And tomorrow I ll go to a hockey game and then be the coach for my own baseball team. I always feel strange, when I have to coach my own team, but well somehow it makes me proud that I m the one the coach turns to, when he can not be there and then the team really listens to me! Weird feeling, cause I dont feel so much like a leader. I guess it´s like a friend said two nights ago. "Lead by example!" ;-)
Ok, need to get ready now! Have a fun day!

"To the world you might be someone,

to someone you might be the
world"