So actually I was gonna stop posting stuff for today and I dont even know why I keep putting stuff up here. I guess that comes with not having left the house in 2 days. I feel like such a bum. Anyways, so the last couple of weeks I ve been on this weird trip I cant get out of. Just now I was thinkin about if I am a grey person or black or white. And actually if I dont care its gonna be grey all the way, but then if its something I do really care about its do or die and I think I ve got too much of that, meaning I go way too for in a lot of respects and the really bad thing about that is knowing it, but not being able to stop it. That is like my life story right there! Knowing what I should do and what not and not following it after all and doing something totally stupid although its wrong! Too much passion! Haha, I really need to stop puttin my soul out on this freakish internet thing, where everyone that wants to could really see. Believe me, its really easy to find out stuff about someone if you really want to. Crazy! Scary too!
I just thought about something really difficult and painful too! I thought of letting go something I really dont want to, but I feel like I have to, to protect myself before it is tearin me apart! I know a lot of you will not understand, but I think some will! I just hope I will be strong enough to actually say goodbye!

Being perfect is not about that
scoreboard out there. It's not about winning. It's about you and your
relationship with yourself, your family and your friends. Being perfect is about
being able to look your friends in the eye and know that you didnt let them down
because you told them the truth. And that truth is you did everything you could.
There wasnt one more thing you could've done. Can you live in that moment as
best you can, with clear eyes, and love in your heart, with joy in your heart?
If you can do that gentleman ,you're perfect! - Coach Gaines (Friday Night
Lights)

Ok, I need to get of here!