So this is it.... I think I m stuck here for now. The interview didnt go that well at all or did it? I dont know... I thought it sucked.

ahh...screw it...

baseball sucks..

uni sucks... just cant learn that freakin indonesian...

man...today everything is pissin me off one again...

there ll be better days ahead.... I just hope I ll make it to Halifax! I really need to go there!!! I really need to...

class in an hour, work in 4 hours....what can I say... life is hard..LOL
j/K

Preparing for my interview and my admiration for Robert Frost keeps growing and growing....

Here are some quotes :

Robert Frost´s description of a poem : " It starts with delight and ends in wisdom"

A poem begins with a lump in the throat; a home-sickness or a love-sickness. It is a reaching-out toward expression; an effort to find fulfillment. A complete poem is one where an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found the words.

All poetry is a reproduction of the tones of actual speech.

Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper

A diplomat is a man who always remembers a woman's birthday but never remembers her age

Half the world is composed of people who have something to say and can't and the other half who have nothing to say and keep on saying it.

and one of his first poems :

Into My Own

One of my wishes is that those dark trees,
So old and firm they scarcely show the breeze,
Were not, as 'twere, the merest mask of gloom,
But stretched away unto th eedge of doom.

I should not be withheld but that some day
into their vastness I should steal away,
Fearless of ever finding open land,
or highway where the slow wheel pours the sand.

I do not see why I should e'er turn back,
Or those should not set forth upon my track
To overtake me, who should miss me here
And long to know if still I held them dear.

They would not find me changed from him the knew--
Only more sure of all I though was true.


ok now back to working.....
family is about to be in the same continent for the first time in monts next week....

and I still have to work hard for school....so much stuff to do, just wantint to finish my book "The 5 people you meet in heaven"...

So, its been a while since i blogged, but I really didnt find much time to do anything, not even sleep.

Just got back from canada today.
Did some nice shopping, although nothing for me really. First time in a long while that I didnt really buy anything for me. Ok, I bought a couple of books, but no clothing or anything.

What else is new in my life?
I broke up with my gf today. Again..yes again, 3 break ups in one year, ok one was on january 1st, but still. I hope I ll be single for some time now.

I will finally hand in my application for Halifax and Trenton tomorrow. I hope I ll get a scholarship. That would be so awesome. That would really give me a push, a big big push, but somehow I m afraid its not happening.....

What else, oh yeah...I ll have a coaching training lecture. A lot of time is gonna go down with that.
But if I pass in the end its totally worth it.

Oh I also got the confirmation for volunteering for the World Cup 2006...yiha....
The groups are selected on December 9th. I got tickets for all the korea games, wonder where they gonna be playin...

A lot of Hw for me comin up and a lot of workin as a waiter (hopefully!?) I really wanna earn some money, although I probably wouldnt have to.

Then again I ll have to catch up with people over the next couple of days. I was gonna visit my friends in Hamburg, but probably wont have time for that. And then I was gonna meet some other friends, have to call them...

So as you can see, very stressful life right now.

Mom and sister comin back within the next 2 weeks as well.

Also having to prepare oral presentations and like 5 term papers. When am I gonna do all this? Especially because I wanna visit Michelle in February. I really really wanna see her again, although I m kind of scared that its gonna be really akward, but I guess we ll find out once it happens....

Ok, I think I should get some sleep now...

More to follow soon