Never stop....

What is coincidence. What is determination, what is pure illusion or what is fate?

I keep askin myself what is my fate. I keep waiting for my task to come. I always wonder what it is and I feel like, maybe I m lying to myself and wanting to built an illusion so much, that I dont see my life anymore.

(listenting to james blunt - you re beautiful)
weird comment ej ;-P

Getting annoyed...yeah I can get annoyed, but I never show, yeah I can get mad, but if its not my fault I wont show. Actually if I dont want people to know, I never show my mood or anything at all.
Still waiting for that one person that can read my mind and look me in the eye and tell me whats wrong or not. I guess thats too much to ask for. I guess I cant even with anyone out there. Even if I tried. But I analyze people so much it sometimes freaks me out...LOL

Love of my life...hm...funny ej...
my best friend has switched girlfriends so much, no one was ever able to keep up with the names and now all of a sudden, he seems settled. I ve been hangin out with them for a bit. They seem so happy, everything just seems right..its so funny.. it gives me hope and joy.

It seems like I ve lost a really important person in my life and I dont even know, where she went. From one day to the next everything was just wrong...soooo wrong....and now its just not workin out anymore. wish she was still there with me somehow.

Oh man oh man,... this blog is so confusing, cause I m really confused....this is all for you jen...this is all for you ;-)

THE FUTURE IS NOW!!!!!!!
I dont like games......why do freakin girls always play games...

and why am i so emotional, that I do before I think. Why cant I be rational for once?
hm, you never know...maybe one day I will....

ok this is it for now, I guess
I might take a walk and watch the sunrise...this time without my sunrise buddy ;-P

Later everyone.....wondering who is ever reading this?