Oh btw, if you misunderstood.
I m still together with my gf and I dont regret at all dating my ex gfs. I really enjoyed the time with them. I seriously did.

Anyways,
today is another day. I drank a little last night. Which is a once in half a year occasion for me and I dont even know why I did it.
Funny....

JUMPING TO :

How often do you feel guilty on a single day. How often do you have a bad concious, because you did or you didnt do something you should or shouldnt have done. You feel selfish, egoistic and a bad character. You hate yourself and you want to change your life, your actions, but you just cant do it. Responisbility is good, because that gives you the ability to change things in life, but then if you dont use it, are you wasting your chance to change life? Maybe one day I ll look back and say this life was worth living, right now, I m not there at all, not at all....
I just hope I will one day.....