Things that I suffer under....

1.Life sucks!
2.Body hurting really bad without even moving
3.Pain inside even hurting worse!
4.Feeling worthless!
5.Wasting precious given time!
6.Not being able to change it!
7.Not using my given talents!
8.Feeling like breaking down and crying 24/7
9.Crying in public!
10.Having a sad lonely birthday!
11.No presents...haha ;-)
12.waking up everyday and realizing its just another bad day
13.going to bed and being afraid to wake up the next morning, so not wanting to sleep
14.Being afraid of having surgery and having to live life in a wheelchair
15.Losing best friends
16.Losing trust in a very important person
17.Being uncertain about a relationship, that is probably not going anywhere
18.Wishing someone would hear me calling out their name
19.Working harder than anyone else and not getting there (baseball) - feeling like just starting to play
20.Trying to consol people and feeling like they feel even worse
21.Missing people and not being able to talk to them
22.Having to let go of things
23.Knowing what will happen later in life
24.Hating myself
25.Hating myself even more than that
26.Deeds I have done in the past and just cant forget
27.Having sleeping problems
28.Being insecure
29.Not being confident with my life
30.Not being confident with what I have achieved
31.Regretting things the very second I m doing them
32.Not being able to tell anyone how I m really feeling
33.Having a bad concious to tell anyone, because they could worry bout me
34.Having hurt people
35.Having used people
36.Being selective
37.Making fun of people
38.Being a sensitive guy
39.Having cheated on my girlfriend..worst thing ever...
40.Falling in love
41.Telling secrets, which should be kept inside of me
42.Screwing up in every aspect of life
43.My stupid bodymalfunction that will make me gain weight
44.Not being well educated
45.My arrogance and selfishness
46.Having thought about comitting suicide
47.Being a bad friend
48.Being a messy person somtimes
49.Being a whiner and complaining right here
50.Hating myself even more than I could ever express

so have I done this.. I will be mad at myself for writing this in less than 24 hours....

And probably it sound worse than it is, because I m pretty settled lately...
So anyone who is reading this. Dont worry! I m good =)
I m enjoying my life! Seriously, its just one of them days ;-)